Why do my heart telling me differently?

Things got soo much depressed now. But i just carry on smiling n move on. People thinks its all okay, but its never been ok anyway. I'm thinking about lots of things now. But, i just can't express it to anyone.

I have been thinking of the idea of resigning and find a job at other place. I also have been thinking of breaking up the "on-off" relationship for good, n involve myself in a more interesting people n activities.

But, my heart told me differently than what is inside my head. Confusion grows causing my brain to numb n cannot think properly now.But still, I wish there is an easier way to live.

Monday Blues...

To tell u the truth, i never like Monday. Since i was small, i hated monday till today.

Monday is the beginning of the week, which means i will have to start the week by going to work again. That is not the worst part, it becomes worse when u have to come face to face with trouble.

I tried to have this positive view for monday, but never can, n never will, i guess. But, the day that i always wait every week is friday, n im sure everyone is too!

Me-self Theraphy

I think in the past few months i've been really into singing. hahah..don't get me wrong. I just like to sing.. you know screaming n shouting along with the music.

It really helps me in relaxing my mind coz u feel the stress are gone. Well, me n friends have voted that KK Box in Karamunsing is the best place to do this. So, we always 'waste' our money n time there. Maybe this is one of the reason y i never seen where my money went to. hahahah...

I remembered once, there was a friend ( i didn't which friend) said this to me, " Karaoke is not a place for those who already know how to sing. Its just for people who don't know how to sing." hahha..i still remembered that to these days. But, there is a possible truth behind this. If u already good in singing, u should be singing with the live band not along the video n etc. hehehe..thats just a theory though.

Singing is the best theraphy for me when i'm really down. So, what's yours?

Jom Marathon...

I usually do this with a friend. But this time, i did it alone. hehehe..well, everybody was working and i just finished having lunch with Davvy at Kingfisher that afternoon. After i send her back to the office, i went to 1B alone. For what reason or purpose, i don't know. But 1 thing for sure, i don't wanna go home early coz i'm meeting my boyfriend after 5pm. So, i thought it was just waste of time and fuel.

I was wandering around when i saw some posters in GSC Cinema. So, i was kinda intrested in this movie called "Paranormal activities". I like Ghost movies though, so i didn't really care of watching it alone. The movie was more like a recording style, where u can see that the person is running or walking around with camera to record the environment. This movie kinda scared me a bit where u can actually imagined if it happened in ur bedroom. What happen in the bedroom when they sleep??...hahaha..that one u have to watch it ur self. I still think about it until now though.

The "Paranormal activities" lasts about an hour an a half. The watch show exactly 4.10 when i got out from the theater room. So, better than wandering around (since i don't have that much money to go for shopping), y not watch another movie? I consider this as having "Me" time alone, and away from all the stress at work. So, i began to search for another movie that starts the earliest. I decided to go for "Sherlock Holmes". This one is reallyy realllyy good. I like this movie a lot. The actors n actresses are superb. So, this movie is recommendable. I rate this movie 4 out 5. Oh ya,i rated the "Paranormal activities" 3 out of 5. That movie really gives me a headache coz the camera always keep moving.

After "Sherlock Holmes", it was just 7pm. I went to Alam Mesra to meet my guy, and have a nice dinner with him ( nothing's romantic, though). After that, he suggested if we can go watch some movies again. ( Well, i didn't tell him i watched 2 movie previously). So there we go again. This time we wanna watch something that's more action to it.

Avatar starts exactly 9.20 pm. The movie was damn good b'coz of the 3D and everything. The graphic n animation was realllllly fine, n i would say that movie has the best animation ever. But the story line i would rate average only. It ends almost 12.30 am. What a long day to me. But still, i was really glad that i got the chance to watch movies alone n with my bf, n also meeting Davvy. This day is really great..excluding the part that i was lectured for being home late. hahahah...

A simple advise from a good Friend

Yesterday, i was on leave just to settle some of GSTT matter. During lunch break, i was able to make a "date" with one of my good friend in UiTM before. She is a very simple person and blessed with a good heart. That is one of the reason why i like being around her.

Well, we had lunch together in Kingfisher area ( she works there) and had a nice chit chat before she goes back to work. Just a normal chat though..but its kinda strike me a little when she said, "Ade, its good to spend your money on something that u can see. For example, you can buy washing machine, closet and so watever. At least u know where ur money went to." She did tell me what she bought for her home.

Thinking back about this really makes me wonder where did i spent my money to. I already worked more than a year but i have no savings and never buy anything that i can see at home.
Davvy is 2 years younger than me but it seems like she is far way matured than me.

But, sometimes as a human, we tend to forget things that is important. So, its good to have a friend who gives u a wake up call. Thanks Dav!

1Malaysia Concept

I'm just an ordinary girl who wants to share some of simple thoughts here. Recently, we have been shocked when some churches have been burnt down due to the use of khalimah "Allah" in Christianity. Well, this matter have been a sensitive issue for a while now. But, i'm sure there is a better way to solve this problem, no matter how sensitive the issue is.

Burning here and there doesn't solve anything. The most famous propaganda "1Malaysia" should be practised in this situation. By acting no better than vandalism, contrary to the concept of 1Malaysia itself, leads to a worst case Malaysia ever handle before.

So, as a Malaysian, try to think using the brain and not the heart. We have to be proud of being a Malaysian coz' we are more fortunate compare to other countries.